Deb

Just so hard to believe. I didn't realize things had really worsened that much. Just a month or so ago I was going to bust his chops a little bit in the chat box about the Lakers, but I got distracted with the MLB forum or something and I never got the chance. Wish I did. :\

Yeah, been thinking of that.

I can't even imagine. I'm thankful to consider myself a friend of his, and yet my perspective is from a much more distant vantage point than yours. It's just so tough to see such a great guy deal with so much shit the past few years, and now this.. This past month, man, life is just not fair.

I know for you he was like family. It seemed a lot of times like you guys could practically read each other's minds. I know he had his fiery side, but it was amazing the way he could meet someone and five minutes later he would be talking to them like they were good, old friends. Living up in the northeast that sort of quality was something very fresh and different than I'm used to seeing. That outgoingness among many others I think was one of his most admirable qualities. Not enough people like that in the world.

I think you had a good idea by waiting a little bit. I was thinking about trying just letting him in NFL, NCAA, ad NBA and see how it goes. I have an app installed on his browser that censors wear words. I just thought if it was his own forum, more than likely the people that would go in would know who they were talking to and he would only see what was in there.

anyway, we can wait a little bit.

We had our moments, but the respect was always there.

Without a doubt. On a different note, it explains why it rained today....for some reason literally every time in my life that I've lost someone that I care about it's rained, if even for a couple of minutes.

Deb there are no words at this moment, sadness and tears have taken me over but if you need anything feel free to reach out. Between you and Reg, you guys dealt with my nonsense and allowed me to rant and for that I am thankful, SJ will never be the same without him, the Father of SJ is gone and I can't seem to go to any other thread but his now!

I've been kicking myself about not reaching out to him recently too. He was just always one of those guys that would always be there, regardless.

It wouldn't be so hard if we weren't so attached. That's why mom always told us not to name the strays we drug in.

Fuck me...I don't even know what to do with myself. Ignore the humor, I'm just trying to brush the tears away with it.

I don't know. I was just telling TJ that it'll be weird without him around. I liked to goad him into using that angry looking smiley as many times a day as I could. I think it's just going to take time to mourn and come to grips with it all. Totally wasn't expecting this. Just make sure that you take care of yourself and don't get overloaded. I'm going to take a walk and see my wife and give her a hug.

Just gotta keep pushing through Deb. Always tough to lose someone you're close to. Take some time and just reflect right now. Spend time with family...get your mind clear for awhile.

ok, no problem. we will get through this, i know Reg would want that.

I wish I had the words. Y'know, through all of the medical problems and health issues....he never once seemed like he was slipping. He was just focused on fighting and making it to tomorrow. All he knew how to do was fight..

what is your work schedule for the rest of the week? We need to talk.

I'll ask her. Technically, it seems easy to configure. I'm confused on the where. I don't even mind if I do have to load something daily to hit their network. But I'm on a morphine downgrade & chills, so I'm havin trouble even typing this message.